By Michaela Maxey
Most of us have been there, and by ‘there’ I mean that weird aftermath of finding out your significant other has not been all too honest with you (to put it lightly). We struggle with this, knowing we should leave but fighting with the conflicting emotion of not wanting to. Somehow, Amos captures all of this with her soft piano melody and relatable lyrics that seem as inescapable as our own feelings.
The lyrics of the song brings us through the tale of the other showing up at the door and everything that follows, including “It won’t be fair if I hate her”. And she’s right that it wouldn’t be fair, but it would be real. As much as the narrator is trying to direct her anger/hurt to the correct person, it’s definitely a struggle that’s easier said than done.
Yet, there’s this strange sort of lyric that unsettles the listener and hints towards something more personal for Amos when she says, “Leave me with your Borneo”. While on her Little Earthquakes Tour, a man came to Amos backstage before one of her performances and wanted her to leave with him for four days to Borneo. This man remains frustratingly nameless, but many fans of Amos do speculate that it’s Anthony Kiedis from Red Hot Chili Peppers as he spent much of his time in Borneo in 1994. Although the two had previously met, it is left unknown whether they had any sort of relationship afterwards.
Nonetheless, whether this song is about Kiedis or someone else, Amos transports this whirlwind of feeling into a song that everyone can relate to. With piano melodies and lyrics that are cyclical, Amos truly gives us the impression of being entrapped by both the other and ourselves in a beautifully heartbreaking song.