By Mina Wiebe
In an album that questions God in one track and explores female masturbation in another, it’s clear that Tori Amos wasn’t afraid to push boundaries in her 1994 album “Under the Pink”. Not shying away from taboo subjects, one of the album’s tracks “The Waitress” takes on the ultimate taboo: a desire to kill.
The song opens with Amos’ soft voice revealing that she “want[s] to kill this waitress”, accompanied by a soft and bright piano melody. Quite frankly, it was the softness that made me assume that she was using this line purely as a figure of speech—you know, “I’m so mad, I could kill you”—the way you’d say it to an annoying sibling. But a few lines later, her voice erupts into this intense wail with a burst of electric guitar and drumming as she sings: “[b]ut I believe in peace/ I believe in peace, b*tch”, and suddenly, I’m not so sure she’s joking.
In a 1994 interview from St Louis Dispatch, Amos says that the song
“is about the agony of admitting that you really have no remorse about ripping this girl’s head off. It’s a very scary thing to not have any remorse about wanting to kill someone, especially when you think you’re a peacemaker”.
The song dances between delicate pop and heavy rock, which in my opinion reflects Amos’ own internal battle between her violent rage and guilt. The initial softness of her voice is eerily serene but then a wave of intense passion takes over during the chorus—she yells about believing in peace but you’re left feeling like she’s probably trying to convince herself more than anything.
The track is genuine and honest, and you almost wonder if Amos is being too honest, but the beauty of the song is that it’s one big, vulnerable proclamation. Amos is saying “take it or leave it”, but either way, she’s singing about something real to her, and maybe that’s all that matters.

